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     I had a great day yesterday.   I woke up feeling good.  I fed the neighborhood birds. It has been so hard on them with the grass all dyeing there are not many bugs for them, so I bought a bag of bird seed. I have been giving then about a cup every day, and with most of my neighbors feeding them bread, they will not starve.  After I fed the birds I popped over to my neighbors porch for a bit and talked to her a while, then I came home and had my own breakfast.   By then the mail had went and I got 3 packages.  I love getting packages it is like Christmas till the bill comes in lol.  I got these great folding fans I had ordered , a beanie frog and the present I ordered for my b/f.  I then watched some tv, and worked around the house a bit till General Hospital came on.   While I was watching it I got a call from a neighbor who had seen some neighborhood kids skulking around her yard.  She was worried they may be trying to gather dog poo from her year to throw at houses, so she asked me to see if they were still there.  They were but they had moved a bit farther over to another neighbors yard. They were poking around at some tall grass, and I asked them what they were looking for.  I told them I knew they did not live there. The biggest one said there was a snake.  Just as I was talking to him another guy came down the street on a bike. I could tell he was related to the biggest boy, and he told them to get back up home.  I called my neighbor and told her they were looking for a snake and she kinda freaked out. She made her husband hunt it down.  I must say when he found it I was surprised it was smaller then a large fishing worm, but she told him to kill it.  I figure the kids were wanting it as a pet they had a plastic container with them and most likely the parents would not let them keep it as it is against the lease. 
     I sat out on their porch for a couple hrs talking to them. Then I came  home and got supper before going back out to talk to them some more.  I did not have one single upsetting thought today at all.  My niece told me when she called me that she thought I sounded great.  I told her I feel great.   I think all this stay at home and use mask thing is getting to everyone so it had not been a very happy summer, but yesterday was a good day.  I just hope tomorrow is just as good.


     I got a couple questions for you all.  Are people not allowed to change?  And If they are not allowed to change or people think that a person can not change, what is the point of all this protesting?   I saw a news story on yahoo about a police officer who was label the basketball cop. I thought that was progress, and the next thing you see is where someone dug up a video that was not quite as favorable from a couple years back of this officer.  I feel people can change. All you have to do is want to change and you can.  I also noticed the second part of that story did not show what happened before the officer arrested the young man ( that he was rough with a couple years before the basketball video surfaced).   It seems people are to be penalized for things they did years ago EVEN IF they have changed their way of thinking and dealing with things, and they are trying to do better, people still want to make it seem as though they are the same person they were in the past.  It is not always the case.  I know because I myself was one of those people that once saw things differently then I do now. All it takes is a real desire to change and you can, but it would seem that some people do not want to see when someone changes. They would rather try to make a person look bad for mistakes they made in the past instead or seeing the changes for the good you are making.   So again the question is ARE PEOPLE NOT ALLOWED TO CHANGE IN THIS COUNTRY, WILL YOUR PAST FOREVER LABEL YOU AS BAD IF YOU DID SOMETHING BAD YEARS AGO?
     The ironic thing in this all is everyone pledge to make changes in their lives on new years day( although few follow through many people actually make the  change) so why is it so hard for people to believe that someone MAY actually make changes their thinking and their lives for the better?

SHAKING MY HEAD ( What is happneing to this world?)

     What is happening to this world?  Did you all see the story of the 5 year old who was shot in the head and killed by his neighbor?  So far the only motive for this adult man shooting a 5 year old in his head and killing him was he had been riding his bike in his neighbors yard.   I have had issues in the past with kids riding through my yard and making a path through it, BUT I went and saw the parents when the children did not stop riding through my yard.   It is unimaginable to me that anyone would shoot a 5 year old to death for something like that.  He ended the child's life and messed up his own life. EVEN IF they find he had something mentally wrong with him that caused this reaction, he will have to live the rest of his life as the man that shot a 5 year old in the head, and killed him. n3.gif?v=122     I myself have had really bad episodes of anger to the point I did not know what I was doing, but I have learned to get away from the thing that is stirring it up in me before I hurt someone.
     What angers me is some of the comments people were posting about it.   It is shocking to me that people think it is ok to shot a 5 year old in the head and kill him just because or the family they were born into.   Children have no choice in who their parents are before they are born, and should not be penalized because of where they were born.   One writer said it was good he was killed because he was privileged.  I would love to know how that person defines privileged.  It showed the little boys home on the news and the guy that shot him lived near by in the same neighborhood. The neighborhood was far from what I would call privileged, and even if it was by the writers standards, the guy that shot him lived there too.  So my question to the person that made that comment is  ( If the child was privileged and for some crazy reason deserved to die because of it, would that not also mean that the guy that shot him was also privileged and should he not be shot too if having money is not a crime?)
     I personally hate the way the media is slanting the news to try to imply that one set of people are the victim and another set are the evil ones, when this story is proof that there are good and bad in all.   If you are going to make a big deal out of one person getting killed because they are from one group then you should defiantly make a big deal out of EVERYONE that is killed unjustly.  I personally think those that are shouting racism the loudest would do well to look in a mirror. 
   I doubt this shooting was a race thing though EVEN THOUGH the media are building it up that way.  The boys own father said he had dinner with the guy that shot his son just  short time before this happened and that their was never any problems between himself and the man that did it.   The man that did it was reported to have been pacing back and forth on his lawn for a short time after he shot the child.  I would be inclined to think he had some kind of a break with reality and was coming down off it when he was pacing round. I think his mind was trying to grasp what he had done.  THAT IS NOT TO EXCUSE THE ACTION.  I just think if things are looked into closer a more direct reason for the shooting may be found as he did not shoot the little girls or the neighbor that saw it.  For some unknown reason his anger was fixed on this little boy.
    Today's children have a way of pushing the buttons of adults.  It does not matter what color they all, MOST OF today's kids have a sense of entitlement.  If it really was about the riding the bike on the yard, could be this child had a habit of doing it and had been told many times not to.  Anger will build in a person till it explodes, BUT LIKE I SAID ABOVE YOU GO TO THE PARENTS IF YOU HAVE A MISBEHAVING CHILD YOU DO NOT SHOOT IT.
    I think the whole country should take a step back and remember the golden rule ( DO ONTO OTHERS AS YOU WOULD HAVE THEM DO ONTO YOU!)   I think I must live in one of the best neighborhoods in this country.  We do not have those kinds of problems here. There is hardly ever a fight among neighbors. Everyone says hi to each other and asks how you are doing, it does not matter the color. My neighborhood has many different color people living here together and mostly respectfully.  Now here is the ironic part of this I live in government housing( much like the project you can see on the movie the blind side, and most of these hate crimes are happening in neighborhoods that look down on projectors lol   I am not afraid to walk my neighborhood in the middle of the night alone.  How many of the people that try to look down on the projects can say that?


     I saw something today that really made me laugh.   You know how to tell when you have gotten into someones mind? It is when they think they see you everywhere.   It seems some think they see me everywhere. n0.gif?v=122  It is nice to know that I have made an impression on people to the point they can not stop thinking about me. lol 


   There was a man I once knew. The way we met was kind of odd, but we became friends.   He was there when I was at my lowest and he helped lift me out of a deep dark place.  For years I knew all would be ok as long as he was my friend. In a lot of ways he was more of a brother to me then my one real brother.  I am really worried about him now. I have not seen or heard anything from him in over a year, although it was not uncommon for him to disappear for a time, he has never been gone this long without a word.  A few years ago we nearly lost him to pneumonia, but he recovered.  I am worried with all this pandemic  stuff  he could have died.  There is one person that could tell me what happened to him, but I have not seen her in nearly as long, and I do not know where she is now.  I saw on the net she was selling her house, so she could be anywhere now.
     The reason I am bring this up is I was looking at some things I kept from long ago and I found his picture.  I was going to try to email him, but I found I forgot his email address. It has faded out of my mind, just as the photo was fading.  It is sad but I think maybe some day my memory of him may fade to, but I will never forget what he did for me back then. If not for his input in my life when I was emotionally broken I would not be here today.  My advice to everyone is : If you have friends that you value do not lose track of them.