jane_and.the_dragon

 
joined: 2014-04-15
DUTY, HONESTY, HONOR, RESPECT, RESPONSIBILITY AND LOYALTY.
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CAN'T SLEEP

I have been up all night, can not sleep. I hate when the events of the past 24 hrs keepo me awake, Iamnot just grouchy when i do notsleep i am a lunitic. My mind has been racing sense yesterday. and i need it to slow down and let me rest. Nearly 6:30 am and my eyes will not close. I got an appointment at noon that I am sure I am going to be in lousy shape for. What I would not give to be someoneelse, anyone else that did not obsess about things that hurt my feelings. I tried to sleep and sleep would not come. I am ready to drop, but still my mind is racing and preventing me from sleeping.
The past couple weeks my stress levels have been on overload. If I can not find a way to calm my over active mind there may be a lot more sleepless nights.


GOOD NEWS FOR A CHANGE

The results of my biopsy were good. NO CANCER HERE YAYYYYYYYY.


SOMETHING FROM A FRIEND

I DID NOT WRITE THIS ONE BUT I LOVE IT!

"What is in your Cup?"
A friend had this on her wall and I had to share it with you! I love this analogy:
You are holding a cup of coffee when someone comes along and bumps into you or shakes your arm, making you spill your coffee everywhere.
Why did you spill the coffee? "Because someone bumped into me!!!"
Wrong answer.
You spilled the coffee because there was coffee in your cup. Had there been tea in the cup, you would have spilled tea. Whatever is inside the cup is what will spill out.
Therefore, when life comes along and shakes you (which WILL happen), whatever is inside you will come out.
It's easy to fake it, until you get rattled. So we have to ask ourselves... “what's in my cup?" (Answer for yourself, Below)
When life gets tough, what spills over?
Joy, gratefulness, peace and humility?
Anger, bitterness, harsh words and reactions?
Life provides the cup, YOU choose how to fill it.
Today let's work towards filling our cups with gratitude, forgiveness, joy,
words of affirmation; and kindness, gentleness and love for others.


WHO OWNS IT AND WILL FIX IT???

THERE IS A DULE MAN HOLE COVER IN FRONT OF MY HOUSE NEAR A FIRE HYDREN AND ONE OF THE COVERS IS ROTTED THROUGH. i HAVE BEEN TRYING FOR 2 YEARS TO FIND OUT WHO OWND IT AND HOW TO GET IT FIXED BEFORE SOMEONE GETS HURT ON IT. THE PROBLEM IS NO ONE WILL CLAIM IT! THE LOCATION IS IN A GREY AREA. ON TOP OF THE FRAME AROUND IT IT SAYS CITY INLET 2. THIS AREA USED TO BE PART OF THE CITY BUT WAS REZONED TO BALLANCE THE SCHOOL DISTRICTS. SO EVEN THOUGHT IT SAYS CITY INLET 2 IT NOW IS ADJASON TO A TOUWNSHIP ROAD. THAT ROAD RUNS THROUGH THE MIDDLE OF A GOVERNMENT HOUSING PROJECT.
SP FAR I HAVE CONTACTED THE HOUSING AUTHORITY, THE CITY , THE TOWNSHIP, THE SEWAGE DEPARTMENT, THE WATER DEPARTMENT, THE ROADS DEPARTMENT, AND ONE OF THE NEWS AGENCYS AND NO ONE CAN TELL ME WHO OWNS THIS COVER OR HOW I CAN GET IT FIXED BEFORE SOMEONE GETS HURT. SOMEONE FROM THE ROAD DEPARTMENT PUT AN ORANGE CONE ON IT NEARLY 2 YEARS AGO WITH THE PROMISE TO LET SOMEONE KNOW IT NEEDED FIXED. tHE CONE DOES NOT STAY PUT IN THE HIGH WINDS WE HAVE HAD THIS YEAR, AND ONE OF MY NEIGHBORS TURNED THE CONE UPSIDE DOWN IN THE LARGE HOLE THAT HAS ROTTED. iT WENT INSIDE THE HOLE 3 INCHES DEEP.
THIS NEEDS FIXED AND I HAVE NO CLUE WHO TO REPORT IT TO NEXT. IF ANYONE CAN HELP ME OUT WITH THIS PLEASE LET ME KNOW BEFORE SOMEONE GETS HURT.


FOR THE SAKE OF THE SEASON

One of the best lines in A Christmas Carol is when Bob Cratchet asks his wift to drink to Mr Scrooges health and she says, I WILL DO IT FOR YOU SAKE AND THE SAKE OF THE SEASON. I realized tonight that many people do and say things at Christmas that they would not normaly do, just so someone else may be happier. Which is over all not a bad thing, but at what cost to their own mental help?
I will give you an example. I have a nephew who moved out of state because he got a GREAT JOB about a year ago, so he only fomes home once or twice a year. Then he spends more time with the friends he left behing then with his family that miss him a lot, I know this because, I am one of the people that miss him. We want him to have a nice visit, so even thought we would rather he spend more time with us , we do not give him a hard time about it FOR THE SAKE OF THE SEASON. We all get the wanting to spend time with frinds you have not seen in a while, but I personally think the time should be devided a bit mor evenly between friends and family,but i keep it to myself FOR THE GOOD OF THE SEASON.
Friend s get tied up in their own lives shat they want and what makes them happy this time of year with no time for me and I pretend it does not hurt , because I want them to be happy even if my feeilings are hurt. I want them to be happy even if I feel neglected inside by what they do FOR THE GOOD OF THE SEASON.
I have already gotten a few nice presents for Christmas, and a couple were expensive. Thing is what I would rather have is a family gathering for christmas we have not been able to have one sense this covid crap started, and this year my neice has covid,and my sister fell and will be in a recovery home for at least a couple weeks :( My sisters and brother are getting older and I like to see them as much as I can. My oldest sister used to visit me every holiday, but with the health issues she and her huaband have I hardly ever see them anymore. My sister that is in a rehab place for her knee is on oxygen so even when she is well she does not go many places but to dializes, and she NEVER says I love you to me even though i say it to her every time. One I love you from her would be more valuable then a hundred dollar present to me. She does buy really nice presents. That may her way of showing love, but I would much rather ACTUALLY HERE her say it atleast once before one of us die.
I will be glad after the first of the year December is always hard for me, has been sense my Grandpa died on Christmas morning 1969.